3rd - 1st day back to college

hopefully, 3rd time's a charm. ::crosses fingers::

woke up at 7 this morning to my freshly cleaned, spacious, re-done studio. perhaps this year will be better now that i have a brighter perspective on school. my routine was normal. ate breakfast so i wouldn't get the hungry/nervous gurgles in my belly. didn't care what i wore today, after all, this is my third, first day back to school and lets face it, no one really cars. i don't have anyone to impress. i packed my bag the night before. only things i needed were munchies, and sneakers for when i go to work after school.

first day back is the busiest. 2 classes and a lab to be completed all by 2:30. the first class always is the worst. my english class consisted of a big circle of student bodies half coherent from being 8:30AM. we interviewed another person and then had to introduce them to class. from just sitting there, already the thought of "man, i should've skipped," came to mind. old habits die hard i guess.

to be honest, i feel like a failure. it's my second time around waiting for my school ID. my second time around for getting a library card, which came to $10.20 worth of fines from a research paper i borrowed books 3 years ago (...and returned on time might i add). already, school is turning out to be disappointing.

doesn't help that i must make 3 - $500 payments for my tuition. just knowing what my bills would cost was egging on dropping all of my classes and crawling back to mass general.

i guess if i can pull it together this semester will be a triumph.

until then...