new plan in life

as many of you know, for the past year, i've been going to school to become a certified pharmacy technician. i'm happy to say, i've completed the courses...the book work at least but now it's time for my knowledge to go to good use.

i started my extern ship yesterday at Walgreen's in tewksbury. i met adam, the sr. tech who was a little older than i was, sabby, a 5th year pharmacy major who goes to mcphs and graduated from lowell high, sang who is a 4th pharmacy major, and dan, the pharmacist on duty.

i was the least experienced and least knowledgeable person there. i didn't like it. dan automatically assumed that i didn't know what i was doing. the steps i didn't know, but i have studied therapeutics I, II, and III, calculations and dosages I and II, medical law and ethics, medical terminology, and compounding. i know more than the average tech when it comes to book stuff. i know what drugs are used for what. i know what dosage to give someone. i know how to do iv flow rates and drop factors. i know how to compound and prepare ivs. but i hated that fact it still wasn't enough to impress him. i asked in depth, relavent, serious questions BUT nothing!

as i was working, i listened to sabby give patient counceling and i thought to myself, i want to do that. i want to be knowledgeable. i want to be able to understand what makes medicine tick, the chemistry, the theraputic nature of a drug and how to utilize it. i want to do research and create medicines. i want to be a pharmacist.

so now i sit here, thinking to myself about everything that i'll have to do to get there. first off, i need to pay back middlesex the money i owe them. then, i have to finish the classes i left which will be another semester. then, when i move to florida, i have to transfer my credits to palm coast community college to finish my associates degree in chemistry. then, i have to take the pcat exam, apply to a pharmacy school, and proceed to bust my but for the 6 years it takes to get a pharm d degree. it is doable? yes. do i have the ability? yes. i know i'm very smart. but i have to apply myself. and i have to ensure that school comes first, which i've never been good at. but it's what i want. so it's what i have to do.

i hope i'll have enough support!